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ugh I know I always write in these things when I'm miserable so it seems as if I am that way 100% of the time, but it really isnt true.  I am happily content many times...today was just a bit of a doozy.  Dealing with the kids at dq is getting to be a pain in the ass cuz i feel  like it is my fault if they do a crappy job, and there is line of doing something about it and going overboard, feeling like a bitch and having them quit....i dont even know yet if the people I hired are going to be any good.  Alot of the good people seem to be leaving soon, so if that happens i dont know wtf im doing...maybe going somewhere else, possibly a bank but i hate having to deal with new people, id rather not have to deal with people at all, but i doubt there is any option to that.  i just wonder why some teenagers are so freaking lazy...its not as if working there is that freakin hard.

i dunno....i wish things could be better, but nobody seems to really care if im in their life at all.  my boyfriend especially not still....and i know its my fault cuz im still with him but love is very hard for me to break away from, even when I know it's getting me nowhere.  Not like its completely his fault.  I suck at life...and the fact that barely anybody ever wants to have anything to do with me sort of hints to the fact that there must be something wrong with me.  I don't think I will ever be number one in anybody's book...hell....number two or three might even be okay but even that doesnt seem to have ever happened. 

*sigh* 

yeah yeah i know fucking pathetic person feeling sorry for themself...wtfe.......

my mommom died.

death sucks

my cat rocks though

drinking orange juice

eating ramen noodles

its cold outside

have to go to work soon

lucy is whining

i love that cat

she's so cute

if this is a poem its really lame

I have to brush my tangled hair